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Thursday, August 17, 2006
Yoz!!2 mths din blog le..so sorry..really dun have the mood n the time to blog..Suddenly find it hard to pen my life dwn in words and put it on web also..anyway..my life is really in a mess la..nth much gd to note down also..haha..
2 days ago just received battalion order that i've been posted to Seletar Engineer Transportation Centre as driver..Omg!!!I'm no longer a bridging engineer..Wen i heard this, i really have mix feeling man..Actually i'm long ago mentally prepared to be posted out one day due to my knee injury..they cant afford to kp me w injury.but i din expect the posting to be so soon..glad as i dun have to tolereate the torture of my OC anymore..but sad cos i have to leave those close platoon mates i have n sum sgts who start to become close to me also..I've gone thru so much in this bridging course le..everything i had done except for the last comet training..having completed that i'm considered a trained bridging engineer le..Y dun they let me complete the course be4 posting me out?haiz..really dun like this feeling of learning things halfway n forced to stop.In army we always say LAN LAN SUCK THUMB..Ppl who crabs on their shoulder will have the final say of our destiny in these 2 yrs.Used to it le...
Haiz..suddenly feel so slack in life..Wat the hell am i doing man!!Slacking thru my life..It's has been a long time since i sense achievement in life!!!Argh!!!I cant take it anymore..Can i have sum chances for me to achieve sumthing!!!i noe i choose to gave up a lot of chances!!i do regret and i noe hw foolish n childish i had been!!What i hope now is chance for me to make up..to make up for all the time i have wasted..slacking is really tiring...it made me feel so tired of living also..mite as well die off frm this world rite?but this is nt wat i wan!!I choose to believe..believe i will have a fresh turn over one day..I will stand firm in this belief..as there's nth i can do now except for believing..everything will be fine one day..
DreamX at
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